I have been gently and lovingly re-exploring my Christian faith. I think it has never left me, though over the years I have tried to distance myself from it. Tossing church out for a few niggling practices or ideas or because some hypocrites twist the Word to their own use was really throwing the baby out with the bathwater. CHURCH, my impressions of church in my life had just really started to ill fit me, until I found one that settled on my shoulders like a colorful serape. Orchard Ridge UCC has done nothing but support and delight. It is impeccable with its word. The love it offers is not hypocritical but personal and universal and celebratory and accepting; the core truth of the Message.

And prayer. I had made a very conscious decision to not pray, not allowing even the consolation of it; but is said “there are no Atheists in Foxholes.” Why deny the nourishment of prayer? And what other prayer do we need than the one above, “Day by Day?”

To see thee more clearly

To love thee more dearly

To follow thee more nearly

Day by day…

My discovery of the divine Feminine too, the Sophia, has settled me down and lifted me up. The heavy handed patriarchy of the past is NOT the only way to embrace our Christian God/dess. The nurturing Mother, the dancing Sister, the Angels who need no binary or gender identification to dance in the spheres in praise… these Celestial beings embrace me like the prodigal coming home. Authoritarianism has no place in my Spiritual vocabulary. Words like Obey and Command and Punishment and Evil and Hell aren’t in my lexicon. I’d rather sing and dance. And sometimes, just be still and know my God, within, without.